Don't Have To...

I drink to pass the time,
I drink to get him off my mind,
I drink to remember how happiness feels,
I drink to forget that what's going on is real.

I cut to feel the pain,
I cut to feel in control again,
I cut to erase what's going on in my head,
I cut to be one step closer to being dead.

I drink to forget how I feel,
I cut to remember the pain is real,
I drink to feel happy again,
I cut to feel the pain.

I cut so I don't think about how I felt,
I drink so I don't remember, how he makes me melt.
I cut to erase the emptiness inside,
I drink so I don't think about suicide.

I drink so I can finally let things go,
I cut so the pain is deep and slow.
I drink to hide how I feel to the bone,
I cut so I don't feel so alone.

I cut to relieve the tension I feel,
I drink to forget what is real.
I cut so I don't have to think,
I cut so I don't have to drink.

**i don't know, it probably doesn't make sense, but it's just drinking is my replacement for cutting, but cutting is my replacement for when I can't drink"