Now I See

I pretend to smile,
I say "I'm fine",
Wave hello,
Wish you were mine.

I take a breath,
To hide the pain,
Laugh and tease,
Like I'm insane.

Lies are truth,
On the outside,
One most used,
"Yeah, I'm fine".

I thought he was different,
It hurts so much,
I wish I could sleep,
But not wake up.

Tears won't come,
Pain can't heal,
He's the reason,
It's all I feel.

I need something,
To numb the ache,
Let's get wasted
Pretend it's fake.

Forget feelings,
Laugh don't cry,
Get so tipsy,
Forget his lie.

It can't last forever,
My heart remains broken,
Rain finds it's way,
To make it's spoken.

I'm on the floor,
Soaked in tears,
Loving too much,
Expressing my fears.

He lied,
I was nothing,
I believed,
I meant something.

He'll never be mine,
Won't come back to me,
I was nothing,
Now I see.