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Real title: Like When We Begun Dating The Dream Of The Poem Start From A Kiss

Should I not
Should I
Put out a lot
To get my heart smashed with an unloving response

I know my weaknesses
I don't try to hid myself
But my pain he can't witness

Depression was busted up today
I let myself fall in a hole
From this mistake I will have to pay
I know there was another way

I sharpened my pencil
And then pushed real hard on my wrist
I let that pain in
To make losing you feel lower

The marks on my wrist ore still here
I've never cut myself that deep
Other might say I can't make out what's there

But even trying to hurt myself hits me hard
Even if it takes away some pain for losing him
Because it makes losing him seem like a larger mistake

The sad part now
Is I don't want to stop
Those cuts showed me a side I never believed I'd know

That made me feel on stop
They were the only
Thing to make the stop

They make me want to do more
And take away this ache
My wrist stings
But that takes away the hate

Will I become a cutter
That's a dreaded fear
But my heart was cracked
And he shows no mercy there

After today
I'm even more unsure of everything
I don't want to lose myself
But he's taken all of me
I love him
Will I cut my wrist daily
Will I cut my wrist daily