My Hidden Secret That Could Destroy

I want to tell you
I really like you
But you'd never understand
I want to be your girlfriend
And maybe last until the end
But I can't
And you wouldn't see what's in your way
Or why I've had to hide this each and every day
I don't put me first
I want you to understand
In another life
I'd be the one taking your hand
But this life is not that one

If you knew the feelings I held within
The emotions I hold back because I can't let you in
You'd be so surprised
Stand there shocked and astounded
Because I haven't let on
How good to be with you sounded
And as you tempt me to take that step
I'll have no choice but to back up
Not let you near my heart
Not let you know you hold it
Because you haven't noticed
Or at least not much

These words would hurt her
In the long run shot me
They'd end in another heart break
I can't lose you this way
Or any way
She cares about you
I can't let myself feel it too
I can't let my words come out
The feelings go through
It's not fair to her
To go after her love
No matter how happy you make me
Or how happy we could be

So I'll hang onto you in my dreams
Feel your words warmth me like a refreshing stream
Pretend I was with you
And in my thoughts
You will be
As I daydream
And think of you all day long
Wanting to tell you
But I have to stay strong
Think of them
Think of him
Think of you
Think of her

She has always stood by me
She always knows what to say
Stood by me when everyone else left
So I'll hold this inside
Till the day I die
And though when we talk I ask myself why
I know I'd hate myself if I even dared to try
She loves you
So there's nothing I can do
I can't love you