My Sickness

I'm infected with a sickness
Ive had it for years
It causes me to cut myself
And to break down into tears

My sickness controls me
And the way i live my life
It makes me long so badly
For the taste of a knife

It takes over my body
And infects my mind
Corrupts my soul
Leaves nothing behind

My sickness makes me
see things i shouldn't see
Feeling so trapped
Like i can never be free

And with just one simple word
Its like a dagger in my heart
So little brings me down
And tears me apart

Sometimes there's not a reason
Why i feel this way
My sickness gets worse
With me living every day

When i look in the mirror
My sickness makes me see
A stupid worthless person
Staring back at me

My sickness sometimes
Fills me with such rage
An out of control temper
At such an early age

And sometimes I'm not sure
Of anything at all
So i sit all alone
And stare at the walls

My sickness spreads
with every cut i make
And this life i have
That I'm not sure how to take

My sickness is depression
Ive had it for years
And somehow i know
It will always be here