Burden

I just wish
that you wanted
to see me
as much as I
want to see you.
I guess
this is what happens
when you love someone
more than they love you.
They feel cornered
when you want
to see them
because you're too
demanding.
It's not their fault
at all,
in fact,
it's completely yours.
You make people
not want to be around you
so easily,
yet you wonder why
they end up leaving
in the end.
I just
wanted to see you
because you're the only thing
that makes me happy
right now.
I don't want to initiate
every single time
because then this happens
and I'm clingy.
I'm unmedicated
and a complete mess currently.
The last thing you want
is to be around me,
and I can't blame you
for that.
I just wish
you wanted to see me.
It literally kills me
that I am such a burden
to you.