Sisters too

I never understood how selflessly you could
love when it came to family until last
night.
I mean,
Family is everything to a lot of people and
while mine is surely broken;
It doesn’t mean that it hurts any less to watch
one of my sisters go through
the life changing news of having ovarian cancer while the other lays broken-
sobbing in a hospital bed with the news
that her full term baby doesn’t have a heartbeat.
My mom stands by her side as I eagerly await updates;
Trying to keep it together long enough to
focus on the words coming from
the doctor over the other end of the phone
and-
my dad shuts himself in his room with his brewing anger over how unfair it is to my family to
have to go through this.
Despite all of it I’m sitting here feeling
guilty for being pregnant with a
healthy child while my oldest sister just lost her third baby and the other
one can’t conceive period.
It is enough to eat anyone alive;
But I would gladly trade places with both of them and feel their pain
rather than watch as their lives crash down around them while mine continues to stay intact.
No irony intended but I’d do that in a fraction of a heartbeat and that-
That is the power of love when it comes to not just family,
But sisters too.