Facade

Things are okay
currently.
I think I am
getting better,
but how can I be
so sure
if I fell apart
so easily before.
I feel fine,
but is it
only for the moment?
Will I fall into
the same thoughts
as before?
There are tricks
my mind likes to play on me,
and I’m afraid
that this is one of them.
If only
I didn’t have so much anxiety
over whether or not
this is temporary.
I don’t want
to play this game.
It’s too taxing
on my sanity.
Please
let this be real—
this feeling of wholeness.
I can’t take another blow.