A Year Ago

by schmetterling   Mar 10, 2020


A year ago
was a much different time
for me.
I was in school
struggling to get the grades
I held my standards to.
I was working
at an internship
where I felt like
I accomplished nothing.
I was in a relationship
where I felt worse about myself
than I ever did.
At that point in time,
I had to convince myself
that I was okay
even though
I really wasn't.
I was invalidated,
I was lied to,
I was mistreated.
It truly is
eye opening
when you realize
that the things you thought
were normal
were far from it.
Had I understood
that feeling like a mistake
was a red flag
maybe things would've
been different.
Had I understood
that life is difficult
and I was doing the best
I could
maybe
I wouldn't have crashed
so hard.
A year later,
I do not have to convince myself
of anything anymore.
I am truly riding the waves
with grace
like they never phased me.
Finally,
I realize that
being myself
is the best person I can be.
Anyone who tells me otherwise
can shove it.
I have survived
my own mind,
and I think that
is something to be proud of.

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  • 4 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Something to be immensely proud of, for sure. Thank you for always sharing your honesty and wisdom and truth. It's humbling and beautiful and brave. Surviving your own mind can be the greatest challenge indeed. One of the lines that struck me the most was about how feeling like a mistake should have been a red flag. That's a huge step, realizing your worth and knowing you deserve to feel validated. You ARE someone with a great story, not without pain of course, but so worthy of being heard.

    Lots of love <3

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