Love alive

Like the way anorexia starved my brain,
and slowed down my world,
the blade down my skin,
the blood beading up,
the insides eaten up,
the demons seating
up,

captain’s chair.

Fade to black.
Into years of
self hatred,
abuse,
misuse.

Of everything.

The way molly crashed into the center of my forehead,
with life changing epiphanies,
that put the fingertip in the most sensitive spot.

Rubbed slowly in a circle and making me squirm,
coming to realizations,
flooding with love.

Endless desire, I must chase this feeling.

Euphoria, Nirvana.
I am endless.

I am love alive.

The near death experiences,
one after the next,

leave me knowing I am bigger than all of this.

I will love the way I want,

I won’t underestimate the importance of today.

I will continue to evolve,
I am alive.

Life, alive,
changes.