I’m sorry for my depressing posts.
Usually I’m more inspired.
I’m supposed to get married this weekend,
but god damn it, I’m so tired.
I don’t want to even do this now.
I don’t enjoy the attention.
And the ones who I needed there,
inspired all this tension.
My mother betrayed me,
My chosen sister selfish with her emotions.
I will be medicated to just get through it.
I’m just going through the motions.
My mother took over my day.
I was supposed to be married on Platte Lake.
She stole my time, gaslit and lied,
made it seem like my mistake.
My sister gave me the silent treatment.
I asked her husband to care for her while unwell.
I asked him to keep her home, not travel
So her trip up didn’t feel like hell.
Because I spoke to him not her
she takes it as betrayal.
That I ask someone to care for her?
What a villainous portrayal.
I have written my husband lovely vows,
but I’ll be begging for it to be over.
I know one things is for mf sure,
I won’t be doing this sober.
I have never been so stressed in my life.
I hate everything that’s going on.
I wish I could kms and be set free.
Or that I could smile and go along.
It’s going to show, I know it is,
how I do not want to be there.
Because my mother ruined everything,
my so called sister doesn’t care.
Both these women, more than anything,
they only care about themself.
For one period of time,
can’t put me above all else.
After the pain of this is over,
I will not take on people like her again.
People who need too much for me
are not what I want in a friend.
Excuse my lack of apologies,
I do not feel one is owed to either.
It was too much for them to put me first.
For this they will not be there.
