I am changing into something new.
I’m growing beyond what I was.
My personality and behavior transforms
and I know it’s all because…
I am thinking of myself first.
I lost some friends, I cut off my mom.
I have all this free time and mental space.
I look inside my brain, there’s more rooms?
Great Scott, LOOK at all this real estate!
Coffee with a new friend who likes me,
lunch on Sunday with a new friend from work.
Not to just keep my brain distracted,
but it’s healing a majority of the hurt.
These new friends tell me sweet things.
They appreciate my heart, my intentions.
I don’t have to explain or worry if I offend.
What is understood does not need mentioned.
I leave feeling energized all over.
I believe time with friends should refresh.
When our time is over with the new ones,
I don’t feel the need to decompress.
There are moments where I grieve,
but I am choosing to refocus.
I am grateful for the new friends
who are happy and willing to know us.
With my spare time again I’m writing,
I’m caught up on laundry and cleaning.
I’m not throwing my energy out to the abyss
where my words have no value or meaning.
My anxiety has reduced, I’m prettier.
I have a happier perspective.
When I stopped catering to the needs of others,
my energy reserves are protected.
I appreciate my husband more
I can’t wait till he gets home.
I had feared when I cut out the cancers,
I would find myself alone.
I thought I would be solitary without them,
but I’m as free as I’ve ever been.
I wish you health, love, and prosperity,
but my eyes are fixed on what’s ahead.
This has given me reflection,
and maybe struck a nerve…
that we all accept the love
we think that we deserve.
