Side Friends to the Rescue

My two work friends, my husband’s cousin,
all coming out of nowhere.
They all texted to check on me.
They showed me that they care.

They know what’s going on with my mom,
I told them all about my sister.
I feel supported, and understood,
during the moment where I missed her.

I need to let go of Annabelle,
and let go of my mother.
Because they disregarded my needs right now,
they are just like each other.

My work friends Rhi & Bre were texting me,
they both asked me what’s wrong.
Both of them stood up for me,
what I’ve needed all along.

“You can always vent to me,
I know that you’ll get through this.
I’ll always match your energy.”
I don’t think that I knew this.

I keep my work friends at a distance,
it’s so hard for me to connect.
Since I never tried to lean on them.
I didn’t know what to expect.

I thought that I would be too much,
take up too much of their time
if I made a moment all about me.
That was me making up their mind.

“ Have a good night and if u need me,
I'm a text or call away.”
I do have people happy for me…
“Looking forward to seeing you Saturday!”

My cousin in law listened while
I explained what’s going on.
With his logical thought processes he concluded
Annabelle is wrong.

I think this retrograde is doing her work,
and trying to let me know.
These people who won’t hold on to me,
are the ones I must let go.

I want to feel better tomorrow.
I want to be prepared.
So when all these people stare at me Saturday
I feel supported instead of scared.

I think I will try something new.
I want to try to lean on in
to these friends I’ve kept at arms length
so new vibrations can begin.