The Time Between Our Visits

by Someone Invisible   Jul 5, 2021


I like the time between our visits.

Not because I believe 'distance makes the heart grow fonder', but
because its been a while since you've been laid.
So you wear the glasses of desire.
And your eyes,
well they just skim my body.
Only get stuck on
the tips on my breasts,
slip between my thighs and
follow the curve of my ass.

I like the time between our visits.
Because after I do my best
to please you enough to consider coming back again,
I want to immediately run and hide.
Because the lenses of desire have been shelved
and now you'll see my body for what it is.
My belly is...too generous.
My hips are...too wide. 
And my face is...too small.
My hands didn't show up the day puberty was in town.
And the scars that marr my face are reminiscent of a comic book super villian and
the scars that line my arms and hips display the weakness in my soul.
My hair is fried and has forgotten its curl pattern.
And I try to always remember to hold my head just so and keep my tongue touched to the roof of my mouth.

I like the time between our visits
because it delays the realization
you'll have one day that I am not worth the effort.
It delays the inevitable exit
you'll take from my bed and my life.
It delays the loss of a crucial part of my routine
I have come to look forward to.

I like the time between our visits
because it means I get to keep you
just a little bit longer.
If only scarcely in the flesh.

***

My sad truth of my long distance relationship.

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  • 2 years ago

    by Kate

    I wasn't expecting this to hit quite as hard as it did.

    It's beautifully and sadly written, and it's easy to sense the pain or fear behind the words as I read. You've painted an experience for each reader quite well, allowing them to connect to the same feeling.

    I love the repetition of the title and how, with the progression of the poem, you can feel the mood change and see the sad side of the relationship.

    Great write.

    • 2 years ago

      by Someone Invisible

      Thank you. I just wrote it last night whilst crying and i just reread it and Im crying again. Lol I always worry over posting poems like this because I dont rhyme or put it in an actual poem format like a sonnet or a limerick but I find that I write freer and truer if I dont put constraints on myself. Idk, Im just happy that the emotions come through. Maybe someone will read this and finally understand what their partner has been trying to say. Maybe someone will read this and not feel so alone because others understand their pain too.

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