Depleted Mother (unfinished)

I see all of me in you
Blue eyes, fair hair, full lips
My breath falls short at a familiar expression
Like a mirror

But I've given all of me to you
Herein the problem lies
I worry I've disappeared, forgotten, irrelevant
In your existence, I've ceased to exist

Housemaid, chef, teacher, nurse
All of my spare time, now yours
I hate every second yet live for them also
The days are so long but the years are too short

No motivation to live in the moment
But regret each day gone by
Promises to start anew every bedtime
Yet promises still made every night

Disfigured, disheartened, disinterested, dysregulated
A tortuous relationship of threats, bribery, begging, punishment
Please give me the time to grow, change
But you - stop growing, stop changing, stop time