Pretending

I was always the kid
Who never did right
Messed up everything
And always got into fights

The kid no one wanted
Too different to belong
Disappointing everyone
Always in the wrong

Not good enough
For anyone at all
Ever since i was born
Ive been destined to fall

God doesn't want me
To have anyone to love
I hear laughter
From high up above

Always the kid unloved
So alone
Being afraid
Even in my own home

And then at my funeral
They can cry fake tears
Pretend they will miss me
And watch me disappear

And in just a few days
They can finally forget
I even existed
My death- They don't regret