Dead to You

What was once such a beautiful blossom
Now lies dead and wilted
Your friendship which once was my world
Has now left my existence tilted

To once have been so close
Only to now be so far
You’ve left an impression I’ll never forget
You’ve left a permanent scar

Even now as I try to find the words
This poem I struggle to write
It just seems impossible to put to words
This never-ending battle that everyday I fight

I thought that I meant something to you
I know you meant everything to me
I never would have figured our friendship
Would become a mere memory

You once told me you loved me
Though this was merely as a friend
But still I thought this love was true
And our times together would never end

But end they did
And much too soon
The sun has already set
And it is only noon

A friendship that I once thought meant so much
Now means nothing at all
I’m holding onto a ledge and my grip is slipping
And you aren’t even there to catch me if I fall

You never told me what meant the most
Why was I the last to know?
You once said you could tell me anything
But then why did it not show?

Things have changed so drastically
It’s like they’ve become a total opposite
We never talk, only see each other by chance
And even then nothing quite seems to fit

The hugs still feel warm to me
Though they should undeniably feel cold
Our conversations are short and lacking
The warmth and deepness of the ones of old

You’ve hurt me deeper than I could have imagined
You’ve hurt me deeper than you’ll ever know
A piece of my heart will always bleed for you
Though I will never ever let it show

A part of me is dead you see
The part devoted to you
I will never fully be the same
This part will never renew

I don’t know what will become of me
I don’t know what to do
I’ve just become so dead it seems
I’ve become so dead to you