Taking My Life For You.

These days have been so long
Sitting here crying endless tears
It's a struggle to live this life
And be afraid of all these fears.

I no longer want to live anymore
The cuts have become to deep
All this pain and all this pleasure
Has finally begun to seep.

Sniffing the crushed Tylenol's
And drinking bitter brandy
The razor blade in my hand
Letting the anger flow free.

But then that one day I met you
Finally someone just like me
You know how my pain feels
And you've answered my plea.

You kissed my luscious scars
That lay ed fresh on my arm
You understood how it felt
To do yourself self- harm.

Together we both lay ed there
Holding each others hands
It almost felt like a dream
To have someone understand.

The scars you left on your arm
You desperately want to leave
This life and pain you all hate
Suicide is the last thing to achieve.

I have never felt like this before
Having someone by your side
Reading every single thought
Not having to hide the pain inside.

Just some days you feel so guilty
For everything you have done
And you have no where to run
And you feel like life has just begun

You told me I should be proud
That I have somewhere to run
And if I ever wanted to leave
You would be the one.

This blade is dedicated to you
Because you will never know
How much I fell in love
And didn't let my heart show.

So I slit this knife into my wrist
Hoping it will brush away this pain
So I could ascend into heaven
And spend my time with you again.

* that last part isn't really true, but most of the beginning very much is :)