Deep Enough. (True Poem)

I sat there crying helplessly
Knowing I could never win
Why do you cause me pain
Dad it really hurts within.

I hate it when you yell at me
When you strike me so hard
Agaisnt your angel's face
Daddy, inside I'm scarred.

Sometimes you're really scary
Dad I tried to be so strong
I guess I'm not good enough
Because you proved me wrong.

When you take out your belt
It really really scares me dad
The marks are on my back
This causes me to be so sad.

I never thought you'd do it
Ever since your mother died
I thought you already knew
How much it hurts to hide.

Why can't you accept me for me
You ask me why I do self-harm
Why I choose to be this way
And have these cuts on my arm.

Dad I didn't choose to be like this
It's just so hard to forget the past
All the memories are too painful
Everything came at me so fast.

I never thought you'd leave dad
You've been gone for a week
Mommy really needs you now
Because I'm just too weak.

She cries every single night
I hear her desperate pleas
Just for you to return back
To leave her at ease.

I can't watch mom cry anymore
And now I'm not sure what to do
But I do hope that one day
We will all make it through.

Sometimes I think it's my fault
Why daddy has left this family
He couldn't handle my pain
Nor could he fullfill his glee.

I hope that one day he'll realize
That he'll understand why for why
I hope he doesn't blame himself
And question why each night I cry.

I'm doing this for you daddy
I try my best to be really tough
Though sometimes I do wonder
If these cuts are deep enough...