My Suicide

by ♥-Sharon Ardern-♥   Jan 3, 2005


My head is pounding
And my throat is sore
I’ve been crying so hard
I can not take this anymore

My leg is trembling, a side affect
From the medication they gave me
It’s no use trying to explain
That nothing but death can save me

With no where to go
And no where to hide
I hold myself, shaking
Dreaming of suicide

A cigarette nestled in my mouth
And a blade clenched between my fingers
Trying desperately to make it stop
But the agony still lingers

I am alone in this world
My scars scream out my despair
My body starved and bleeding
The blood pouring everywhere

And I’m wondering
How the hell I can live
I can not take this
I just want it other with

I turn my arm over
I’ve studied and researched with care
So I know how to do it right
The blade hovers above my skin, so white and fair

Just one more slice
Suicide now, not self harm
The blade goes swiftly across
The blood trails down my arm

I close my eyes
Waiting to fade to black
I am fully aware that once I do,
I won’t ever be coming back.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005

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  • 15 years ago

    by BleedingAngel

    God, this is really amazing, touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes, sounds just like my life

    My leg is trembling, a side affect
    From the medication they gave me
    It’s no use trying to explain
    That nothing but death can save me

    I know what you mean, I take those pills too....Chek out my poems if you feel like it, I bet you can relate to them, as much as I can relate to yours..

    Hugs Sabrina

  • wonderful. great rhymes. (sad, but great)

  • 16 years ago

    by Marta

    noo, you can't go :( please don't. stay rreally strong... i hope you're ok. xx
    luv ya tons!

  • 16 years ago

    by Amber

    I'm probly lat on this one but this was REALLY good REALLY good!!
    I was a cutter, still am as a matter of fact, I just cut in lower parts than my wrist, like my legs, since my mom found out she's been on my ass

  • 16 years ago

    by Ixora

    hey thanks for commenting on my poem and i love this poem...its gonna take me a while to read all your poems btu they seem wonderful...please continue...oh and i knwo exactly what taht poem means....but when you said you were in the same boat...id have to argue...well maybe we can chat one time..till then....
    greetings and moonlight