Ill say Im fine

Ill smile and laugh,
And pretend I'm ok.
I wont let them see,
That I hurt more each day.

Ill say I'm fine,
Even when I'm crying.
I will say I am happy,
Even though Ill be lying.

Ill joke around,
And always wear a smile.
I wont let them know,
That I'm in agony all the while.

Ill be jolly and cheerful,
Ill act like nothings wrong.
Even though I am suffering,
Like I have been for so long.

Ill be lively and light hearted,
Ill tell them I'm alright.
I will not let them realize,
That I'm giving up the fight.

Ill act like it don't worry me,
When HE hurts me once more.
Ill just say I don't care,
Even when I'm weeping on the floor.

Ill be friendly and easy going,
I wont show how much happiness I lack.
But I do rather worry,
That my mask might just crack.

I will make out I am just fine,
I will not let my true feelings show.
The fact that I'm screaming inside,
Well they will never know.

I will bother no one with my problems,
But listen to theirs instead.
I will stand up tall and strong,
Even though my hearts so full of dread.

But I know It will get to much for me,
I will soon to commit suicide.
Only then will everyone notice,
How much I was tortured inside...