Everythings Been Said.

Please just get out
Get out of my head
Just leave me alone
And f*!ck off instead.

This cold, heavy voice
Won't leave me alone
I just want it to go away
So I can live on my own.

At night I can't sleep
I'm to scared to dream
That cold, dreary voice
Makes me want to scream.

I stay up until dawn
Exhausted and tired
Trying to get up
Is always required.

I clench my greasy hair
As I tighten my grip
I rock back and forth
Hoping it'll slip.

Slip into someone else
To not bother me
Or to rotate my mind
Of setting me free.

I nibble at my finger
As I look at the blade
That lays besides me
To slip into another shade.

I suddenly look away
Hearing that voice again
Noticing its familiar hymn
I f**k!ng cry in pain.

I have cut my temple
The blood slides down
Onto my pale cheek,
My smile turning into a frown.

I bury my disgusting face
Into my dirty bruised hands
How much can I take?
Before I turn to my plans?

This voice is controlling
Everything I simply do
I can't take it anymore
Not willing to pull through.

I bang my bloody head
Against the chipped wall
I cry out in helpless pain
Wanting to end it all.

I realize something
Something shiny
How did it get here?
Something so... tiny?

This was my chance.
I slowly pick up the gun
And if I do it I'll know
My life will be done.

Just that crazy thought
Makes me laugh so hard
I have tears rolling down
Thinking I'm already too scarred.

So then I hold the gun
In my cut up right hand
I tilt my head back wards
Leaning against my bed stand.

My room is dark and empty
In a way, it's kind of like me
And how I feel inside too
It's like a reflection of me.

Finally I pull the gun
Toward my bleeding head
And that's when I know
Every things been said.