One Action

My hearts been broken to many times,
I said I couldn't handle it,
My tears ran down,
And they won’t stop,

Blood is all I see,
A chrisom wall of red,
Over and over a part of me dies,
Never to be rebuilt,

If u don't c me tomorrow,
It’s because I couldn't cope,
I couldn't even make one night,
Without picking up a knife,

I hate my life,
I want it to end,
The sooner the better,
No one will care,

I wish I made the step,
Got there first,
Save myself even a bit of ache,
But no he did it himself,

When I tell people,
One in particular,
They will be happy,
How selfish can u be,

I loved one for so long,
He ruined my life,
The next made me so happy,
That I reframed from my treasured knife,
But he dumped me,

I will now again,
Start the journey,
A journey into a deep depression,
Never to be seen as myself,

No one understands,
How I feel right now,
They think they do,
But they just don't,

I will forever cry,
Through this never ending pain I live,
A million words will not tell the whole story,
But one action will.

©Samantha Jayne Reed
Wrote on March 8th, 2005