How I cope

I slam the door
I'm all alone
I grind my teeth
And throw my phone
it hits the floor
and breaks in two
I'm hurting more
than i should do

Its not my fault
I scream inside
My heart jolts
I want to hide

Want to be away from here
somewhere where there is no fear

My heart beats fast
I cant catch my breath
thinking about the past
start thinking about death

Grab my scissors
hold them tight
slash the skin
I'm trying to fight
This feeling within
I like the pain
I welcome it in

I stop and see
what i have done,
Blood on me
its like I've won,

I have calmed down
no need to frown
i think for a while
then start to smile

Blood on my arm
A glint of hope
I know i self harm
but its how i cope

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