Undying

I feel my body heat rising
Until my body burns
I feel dizzy and strange
And my stomach turns

My vision goes blurry
Till I can barely see
And for what seems eternity
Pain surges threw my body

I can’t seem to breathe
It hurts so much
And no longer I can feel
Anyone’s touch

I begin to fall
Till I hit the ground
There I lay unconscious
Not making a sound

My breath slows down
Till I appear dead
And though I lay cold
The pain still attacks my head

is this some type of punishment?
does god want me to feel this pain
because once it's over
it just happens more again

so someone please end this
put me to my grave
because no one can help me
i can not be saved

i'm giving up all hope
i have no more love
i long lost my faith
all because i've had enough

but still i soon awake
tears fall down my cheek
i feel my body failing
as it has become to weak

i know it wont be long now
till this pain takes me down
so i just lie there
half dead on the ground