Giving Up

As hard as I try,
Nothing ever works out.
It makes me so angry,
It makes me wanna shout.

I try to make my parents happy,
By little things I do,
But that never seems to help out,
They still don't believe my efforts are true.

I want to tell him how I feel,
To tell him that he's the one I love,
That we'd be most perfect together,
Like hand and glove.

I tried to speak,
The words came out all wrong,
The feeling I gave him,
Was far too strong.
He took it the wrong way,
Never knew what I meant,
But still I thank God,
For this angel had sent.

I tried to help my little brother,
With the troubles he faced,
But failure was eventually
Something I had aced.
He thought he had friends,
But was just bullied and teased,
It brought him so far down,
His pain has yet to be ceased.

I tried to help myself,
To see the happiness inside,
But it will never be seen,
Because it just wants to hide.
Maybe I'm stupid,
For having such hope,
Now that I know,
I'll wash it away with water and soap.
Hope has never helped me,
Just pushes me away.
The the magic starts,
And I come back, this time to stay.
Then it happens again.
This is useless....
I'm not like that persistent pup,
Waiting on the lonely road for his owner.
I am giving up.