He feels suicidal

He feels suicidal.He doesn't want to live.
But what he don't realizes,he's got a lot to give.
The gunshots were so load i could hear them from next door.
I rushed into help you.But you were slumped on the floor.
Blood was all around you like a sea colored red.
I was hoping and praying but knew deep down you were dead.
So i held your hand,but it felt kind off cold.
I was dreading the words i was about to be told.
You are gone now for sure.walked out life's door.
You're out of harms way ,so wait for me by heavens gate,
Until we meet again one day.