I enjoy it...

I’m I pain, but I enjoy it, freezing my boiling
Living not breathing, in a world of my own
My eyes are wide shut in this nightmare land
As the hounds of hell tear flesh from my bones

Listening intently to the sounds from my past
Deep breathing in my ears, in the darkness behind
There is blackness in the day stolen from night
And now the sun’s rays are impossible to find

I’m now so dizzy from always wasting my life
And it’s like I’m dancing in circles and squares
I am waltzing with demons so high in the sky
Where no one can see and there’s no one who cares

But one day I will fall down to earth with a bump
That will bruise me and cut me so red and raw
And the pain will return but won’t be so much fun
As life will return to how it used to be before…