My Promise...

I've never felt so bad
In my entire life
Before I whispered those words to you,
On that horrible night

I knew you would be mad at me
And I became so scared
Cause I knew I should have turned to you
Cause I knew you would have cared

But I was just a foolish girl,
With too much on her mind
To think of how you would react
If my cuts turned to suicide

Babe, I really love you
You are what I need
I'm sorry I broke my promise
And made my self bleed

I hope you can forgive me,
For the things I have done
I couldn't stand losing you,
Couldn't deal with you being gone

So, I'm going to make a promise
This one I swear I'll keep
So baby please listen
And keep trusting in me

I promise I won't cut. That I'll always come to you. And before I pick up the razor, heres what I'm going to do. I'm going to call you, on the phone, and say I need your help. I'll stop saying nothings wrong, even when you know somethings up. This time, I'm going to let you in, and think of how you feel. I was so scared you would break up with me, couldn't imagine it was real. But just in case you're not around, I'll have a pen in hand. That way i write a letter, of how things have been....

I don't want to be that ex,
Who cut her self to death,
I wanna be the girl you love,
I wanna be the best

I'm sorry that I cut my self,
And I promise that I'm through
I'm doing all of this,
Cause I can't stand losing you.

This is not just some random poem, that I felt like writing. This is real. Its a promise I'm making to my boyfriend.