Just another child of divorce

*please read and comment it would mean alot, this is full of my feelings and came straight from my heart*

Stuck in the middle
so unsure and confused
torn between my birth rights
parents love being abused

why are you involving us
all we are- are kids
stop making us pick sides
and believing all your fibs

your the one who left us
five years ago in pain
now you want shared custody
but you missed what you'll never gain

you put my mum through hell
every single day
you have no idea how much she hurt
but at least she could stay

yes dad I still love you
even though how nasty you have been
you stupid kick ass salesman
this coming you've never seen

a twice a month father
is all you've been for five years
suddenly you want it to change
think you can wipe away the tears

well sorry daddy dearest
the scars run way too deep
I'm staying loyal to my mummy
the one I'll always keep

you've hurt mum and all of us-
UN forgivable- too bad
hope you like what we felt
reject, neglect and sad

I don't know what this is
I guess hurt running through my fingers to my pen
bottled up emotions
hopefully coming to an end

because while I sit here waiting
nervously in my room
mum and dad are in a court room
battling out the doom

dad, why are you so arrogant?
can't you see it from mums side
all the dept and heart ache
caused by you and your pride

Matt was only two years of age
a baby so young can forgive
but I cannot forgive a parent
asking a seven year old with who he wants to live

we've just received two phone calls
one from each of you
Dad, you don't sound happy
Mum, you certainly do

well I guess its over
well at least i hope
The last five years have been really hard
but do I really want to know?
I've grown to love my little family
I don't want it to go

anxiously I sit
awaiting mums arrival
I don't know what to expect
hopefully survival!

a divorced child
sure it is common
but all are unique
I am a stronger person
for leading a life so bleak

I am a child of divorce
and no matter how many there may be
It doesn't stop the pain
thats overtaking me