Light up the Darkness

Why are you so against me killing myself?
Why do you really care so much?
Why do you say the things you do?
I don't get it.
Why?

Why don't I get it?
Why do I feel like I do?
Why am i so scared of being rejected?
I don't get it.
Why?

Why am I the way I am?
Why do i feel unloved when people say they love me?
Why do I feel the most alone when I am in a crowd?
I don't get it.
Why?

Why do I push the people I love away?
Why do I take things so personal sometimes?
Why can I only see the bad things in my life?
I don't get it.
Why?

How do i find the LIGHT so i can step out of the Darkness.