Die Tonight

I’m hurting forever,
By many mistakes I’ve made,
I thought I was doing something right,
But instead just let it fade,

I’m in so much pain I can't even cry,
A cut is nothing more,
Death may once again bring peace,
Like it has before,

Tonight I’ll try once more,
Hope I succeed on my last,
I don’t want anyone to waste there tears,
Forget me as a memory of the past,

I don't blame anyone for the way I feel,
There’s only one person to blame,
And that it my self,
By driving others insane,

I didn't want things to end up this way,
I didn’t' mean for letters to cause pain,
I’m better off alone,
At least then no one will get hurt again,

Everything I do turns to sh:t,
Every poem every cut every tear,
I can't even get right,
There’s now no such thing as pure fears,

So I’ll end this today at dawn,
But if I wake tomorrow I’m truly sorry,
That I didn't die sooner,
I’ll just try again tomorrow,

At last I can leave, now a smile appears,
I love you all and I’m sorry I lost this fight,
But it’s about time,
I died tonight.

©Samantha Jayne Reed
Wrote on August 15th, 2005