Sharp Objects Will Not Win

I hurt myself again today
I gave into despair
My thoughts they ran away with me
I felt like no one cared
But then your words they brought me back
And opened up my eyes
I realized how dumb I was
And noticed my own lies
All the things I'd told myself
I only made them true
And all my negativity
Worsened as it grew
So as I watched the blood run down
I couldn't help but cry
My feelings pulled me up and down
Should I live or should I die?
You said "Baby please don't do it...
I'll come hold you soon
I'll come hold you tomorrow
Just to get you through..."
I answered with a question
"Would you hold me anyway?
If I already gave in,
Is that still what you would say?"
You told me that you didn't know
And it would hurt you alot
I just sat there stunned
While more tears I barely fought
Then you said something
That really made me see
"I don't know if i could..
I'd feel like it was happening to me.."
And then I realized you were right
How selfish could I be
All this time I'd hurt myself
I wasn't only hurting me
I knew right then i had to change
How blind could I have been...
So now even though I'm struggling
Sharp objects will not win.