Odd girl out..

As i sit here crying
about how stupid girls can be..
i cant help but wonder..
"why is it always me..?"

and i cant help but wonder
if maybe i'm not right..
seems like they pick on everyone
all they wanna do is fight

all they wanna do is talk about you
but never to your face
the same few few victims are thrown around
and once i week i take my place

and theres nothing i can do
all they do is deny
everything they said
its just lies on top of lies

and all the feelings that i feel
that i always try to hide
are slowly creeping out..
they just cant keep inside

and i hate myself for it
i swore they'd never see a tear
i swore id never let them know
about all of my fears

but when i think about the parties
and all they fake friends they have
i cant help but wonder..
if having that would make me glad

if being a part of something
even if they were cruel
would make life easier
especially in school

but it doesn't really matter..
because ill never get the chance
no one ever leans over..
to give me a hand

thats just how its always been
I'm the girl everyone talks about
the victim of the gossip
always and forever..
the "odd girl out"