Suicidal Love

Tears of blood
I no longer belong
Words of murder
I'm no longer strong

I'm being drained
Of all my love and heart
Where I thought love
Was going to be our new start

I've had to go through this
Too many damn times
Where against my heart
You've committed too many crimes

Obviously you led me on
Obviously you never cared
You should have told me
That way I was prepared

I've picked myself up
And worn myself out
It's grown to a point
Where life is in doubt

You've helped me occasionally
But then thrown me back down
I'm surprised I'm still alive
So now I'm going to drown

Cutting fails me each time
No matter how deep
I can't pull the trigger
Just cry myself to sleep

Love is the suicide
That rots my soul
And tears me apart
What used to be whole

I thought I knew how you felt
I thought it was all true
I thought it was finally love
I thought our love grew

But now love is broken
Love is broken trust
Now into my throat
This knife I'll thrust

Well just a note to all my friends, yes, I've had failed suicide attempts, but don't think I'm going out to try and do it again...it's just sorta a way to get things out.