I Tried

I've gone as far as I can go,
I tried so hard in this forsaken life,
Broken hearted and beaten down,
Every reason to enslave the knife,

The life I was born is wasting away,
The clock is ticking my time to go,
Life's short so why make it long,
When everything you care about is gone,

Every waking moment I am still here,
Nothing can clear my mind,
Of a fate so true and beautiful,
A horrendous but peaceful suicide,

It doesn't matter how hard you try,
In the end nothing perceives perfection,
You're left alone and lost,
In a dark crimson depression,

There's only one thing you should know,
I put all my trust in your faithful hand,
Until you let go and left this world,
Left me here all alone to stand,

My life has been an everlasting lie,
To please ones I care about and love,
But when you learn you're not a part of,
Their so precious world you've been shoved,

Too all my friends who believed,
In me my life my will to live,
I love you all and know that I tried,
To keep going giving all I had to give,

But things just aren't the way they used to be,
Now if you ask if I'm ok I always lie,
If anything happens I want you all to know,
In this life I truly did try.

©Samantha Jayne Reed
Wrote on September 5th, 2005