Ashes

Eyes are red and puffy
With no-one here to see
That at this moment in time
My heart is breaking, and I only have Murphy

Just thinking of my grandparents
Has put me in this state
Is it bad I haven't visited?
The place they rest of late?

Do you think they noticed *cries*
Just how they made me smile?
And just how much I miss them
Though I haven't thought of them in a while

Or that I can't remember
Just how their voice did sound
Remember how they held me
Each time that I fell down

Am I that bad person?
That today I feel myself to be
Or am I just feeling down
And this is the outlet I've chosen for me

I just wish that they could see me
And say they're proud of me
The choices I had made
And the woman I could be

This is far from the best poem i've done but at the time my heart was breaking and it just went from me to computer. any comment will be appreciated and returned.

lv A, x