Confusion Has Taken Over

Today
Is just a day
A day
Like any other
Laughing
Pain
Such an odd
Combination
Confusion
Understanding
Why is God
So demanding
Why must
Love
Be like this
Why must hate
Be so real
Why do tears
Fall all the time
Why do I
Have silly fears
Why am I
Always thinking
About things
Most people
Don't think about
Why
Do I understand
Things
That most have
No understanding of
Why
Do I write this
Because I have nothing
To do
Why
Do I tell myself things
And then deny
That it's the truth
Why
Do I think of
Hurtful things
Just
To make myself
Feel even worse
Do I deserve it
Do I like it
Why I am
I like this
This
I do not know
But all these things
I never show

Some of the stuff in here it doesn't go into complete description in here but it turns out I have OCD so that is why I do some of the things I do and think some of the things I think.