Tired

Lately I realize that nothing's going right.
Even though I have the power I can't stand to fight.
I know what to do, all I need is to change.
But I do nothing... sadness pollutes my brain.
Psychologically speaking, I'm very ill.
Ill enough to be crazy, that's the way I feel.
All I ever do is make mistakes after another.
I can't turn away, that gives my heart a bother.
I never learn from everything I commit.
Instead my sorrow builds, and I can't ever calm it.
I'm so confused, and I feel like I'm drowning.
Staying angry's the only way I can stop from crying.
I'm lost inside, and I'm lost on this world.
I want to take all my pain and just hurl it.
I'm tired of the stuff that's been happening.
I've lost myself from the very beginning.