Multiple Personalities and Other Inner Reflections

Disheveled photographs flood my vision
I fall, breaking, who am I?
Lost the visage of my essence
Bringing discourse to the images
that I hold dear

Memories break, shattering beneath
my heavy heart, unable to withstand
the weight of despair cast upon
my burdened soul impatiently
awaiting my turn to shine

Watching other's achieve their life's ambition
As I painfully watch mine slip
slowly through calloused hands
Working night and day to reconstruct
my dreams from scratch

Sure I used to have goals
but you stole them away
I've been rebuilding all that I once was
since your unexpected, quite permanent
leave of absence

Recreating my image, fighting a constant battle
to become who I was before you
Bringing to light the old me
A ghost of my former self, a faded broken memory
a girl now a woman

Unworthy of anything....
Falling apart into bitterness and sarcasm
Happiness fading with the rise of the moon
Lost hope over shadows my vacant soul
Casting stones at the person I am now

Hatred brimming, lost in self loathing
How can that be? I never hated the happy,
bubbly girl that always smiled
Why hate the broken, down hearted girl
that fakes all that her loved ones think she is?

Or am I faking? Am I truly happy
and just deceiving myself as to
make me into the pained, self loathing
poet I strive so hard to be
Confusion overcomes me

I struggle with opposing personalities
fighting a losing battle
Perhaps, madness has finally set in
Multiple personalities!!!!
Can it be true?