In The End U May Get Wat U Want

Passion / misery / fear / agony
all of them breathes in me
life has been so far so kind
sometimes I wonder, who to blame?
God or Mankind
to this everytime the angel replies
my dear child, if you hate yourself
if you cant take the darkness of life
why dont you embrace suicide?

Somehow the day came
when I said to myself
enough is enough
the day when I realized
no matter how hard I try
survival in this world for me is tough

Courtly I sipped from my chalice
desperately I ran towards death to kiss
only life knows how much I hated it
but here I am still living in same shit

This was not the first time
when I felt betrayed
miseries kept on visiting me
even when I tried being dead

Its not that I was abused by family
Its not that I have grown being lonely
all my life with dignity I faced my part of tide
time stood against me so many times
but I walked away with pride
I used to be an idol to many around me
now passion / misery / fear / agony
all of them breathes in me

once again I asked angel to reply
why whenever I close my eye
I feel as if I am at the threshold of victory
but then I realize its not me

why people only find peace when they die
on the other these living animals are there to haunt

to this the angel replied
my dear child, if you think about hate all the time
in the end you may get what you want

so unless you would not realize the beauty of life
why would someone motivate you to survive
this life comes to those who deserves the best
you live your part & in peace your soul may rest
for those in life who try to run away
open your eye, there is yet another day

there is nothing simple in life
so make the best of it while you are alive
death is a sweet fact which will come by time
running against the hands of time is a crime

I stared at the mirror with a smile
after all these years of struggle
what a bitter fact have I realized
if anyone of you really want to have end to this pain
please make sure that you ask no angel again
as they are the one, forever they lie
talking about life as they dont have the courage to die

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