Thoughts Of A Girl With A Dieing Heart

What has brought this pain upon me?
because the cause i cannot see.
im so broke down in many pieces,
when will the end to this pain finally meet?

i would do anything to leave this world,
and drift off into mine,
but what is imaginary cant be real.
what way out can i find?

my hopes and dreams came crashing down
many years ago.
im scared, beat up... in black and blues
cause of the many times i've been thrown.

what if i just left this world
in a bloody suicide?
would it make the weight of a ton go off?
between the depression and glee was i able to decide?

in every aspect of my life i hurt...
and i have yet to find anything to ease my pain.
how much more strength to go on do i have?
do i have the strength to go another day?

i know with the days that are passing
my heart rate is slowing down.
no one can help me at this point
cause by tomorrow my body is going to be buried underground.