I'm sorry for being the person i am

I'm sitting here just thinking
wondering what i did wrong
they all think about money
and i have to go along

I'm feeling very angry
and so very f u k i n low
i can't even describe this
it gets worse as i grow

my best friend doesn't call me
it seems she doesn't care
i feel ignored by everyone
no one is ever there

they all have problems
and i just have to deal with mine
but what should i do??
this pain has crossed the line

when i say i love you
do you no its true?
do you no each night
that i only think of you??

does everything in my life
have to go so bad
i wish that there was someone
who is there when i am sad

your problems are so horrific
i even start to cry
if only you could live with me
and not want to die

i don't no what I'm sorry for
but i feel thats what i should say
SORRY FOR BEING ME
and sorry that I'm this way...

my mums always depressed
and it feels like dad has changed
my step mum used to love me
but I've become deranged

no one likes me cause I'm selfish
but mum is the one
she acts like her life's so bad
but really it could be fun

she has never thought of me
when her boyfriend acts this way
pushing me around
when things are not OK!

I'm sorry i can't be perfect
I'm sorry I'm a mistake
I'm sorry you think i don't care
I'm sorry that I'm a fake

i can't trust anyone
since that time that you touched me
you were like my uncle
i thought that you would see

i told you about my life
and how i am coping
then you did that thing
and left me f u k i n hoping

I'm now scared of everyone
who wants to be apart of my life
I'm scared that they will touch me
and put me through the strife

for my life is now a play
and each day just passes me by
everyone had deceived me
and made me want to die

just needed to get my feelings out on paper, you might think I'm worthless but i really am not wanting attention, i want this feeling to go away, i can't trust anyone since what happened and whats happening