Alone still

I've only ever felt one thing in life;
Loneliness.
I've always been by myself
It used to not bother me as much
But now everyone has someone
Except me.
I have no loving family,
No boyfriends or true trustworthy friends.
I'm alone and it hurts.
I don't want to be
But it's not my choice.
I feel hurt and like no one even cares.
I hate being alone
I've already been alone so long
You would think I would be used to it
But I'm not.
I don't care what it takes
But I can't stand to be alone anymore.
If I am
I don't know how longI will survive
Or want to stay alive.
Tears well up in my eyes tonight
And for what
Over simply being alone in this big, heartless world.