It hurts

It hurts
when they have inside jokes,
and we barely mess around.
It hurts
when they have sleep overs,
and I'm stuck at home alone.
It hurts
to see them smile,
cause i know its not for me,
it hurts
to see them laugh,
cause a part of them,
i could never be.
It hurts
to watch them love,
and know that its not mine,
it hurts to see them be happy,
and know that i am crying.
It hurts
to watch them live,
and know inside I'm dying.