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I grab the blade,
How easy it seems
to just let it all go
I try and try to let it go,
But how,
how can i hurt the ones i love,
my family, my friends
Its all too much,
I know that they'd be better off,
Better off with me gone.
But how?
its not as easy as it looks,
it hurts it kills
i want to let go
i need to hold on
The false promises,
that things will get better
that it wont hurt
that wounds and scars heal
This blade can end it,
the words
they haunt me,
calling silently
you bit*h, you dont deserve to live
I HATE YOU
im trying
trying to stop
trying to live
its just too much,
too much to bear
maybe, just maybe
tomorrow will come