My Brother...

OH Bub I'd be in trouble if you left me now,
i wouldn't know what to do or where to go,
my life would be turned upside down even more if you left me now..
your my miracle, my guardian angel
i wish you were here i wish i could hug you and make it all OK,
see i already lost you once, i don't need to loose you by death too,
you are and will always be the greatest person i have ever known,
you are my brother, that will never change
i will never find another that's as wonderful as you,
when you left you broke my heart...
but you still have it b/c you took all the little pieces.. with you
i wish you were here to watch me go thru college,
i wish you were here so i could be with you every day like I'm supposed to be..
you are my life,
and until you come back it will be on hold,
its hard to continue with out you here,
its hard to think that any time now the jail house could call me and say you finally did it., you finally killed yourself..
i pray every night that i don't get that fone call,
i pray you don't try to kill yourself again,
i need you to come back so my life can be complete,
there is still more things you have to teach me,
there's still more times I'm supposed to mess up and get yelled at by you,
there's a lot of things UN finished that i need you here to help me with..
i will never forget you,
no one will ever love me the way you did
you were special
even after death you will still always be my brother...
like you said to me...
i will love you until my very last breath..

OK y'all i know this isn't like in poem form or w/e but i just had to let that out...I'm sorry if its bad..i just needed to say that! but comment if ya would like!!!