You are my suicide

For the first time in my life
i learned how to trust
i fell in love with you
cause i thought you were a must

and i let myself believe
that you werent the same
not like the other guys
that thought this was a game

i thought there was no competition
between you and other boys
i really thought i was more
than just some useless toy

but boy did you proove me wrong
your really just like them
everything that we had
was planed.. & all pretend

and now i cant stop crying
this page looks blurry now
the tears are falling oh so fast
and i cant stop wondering how

...how i got into this mess
and how i let myself trust
knowing it was fake
and that soon i would be crushed

i knew this love would stab me
until theres no blood left to drip
and that you'd suck up all my life
down to the very last sip

your plan was to leave me broken
leave me depressed and helpless..
this game was made to hurt me
and break me till im lifeless

HEY BABY GUESS WHAT!
you win! i give up..
i've tried to overcome this
but there's just no such luck

this time im in too deep
and this time it's just soo black
your knife is really stuck in me..
i just can't see me going back

so come over to my house
please.. come watch your victory
come and watch me fall to pieces
and waste away for all eternity

cause i cant take it anymore
and theres no words explain
no pill to make me happy
ive never been in so much pain

& im a total basketcase now
youve made me bleed & made me cry
you are the ending this life..
you are my suicide...

©becca