This is what i feel...

I'm Tired of Holding Back
Its tell my that i reveal
things that are happening
and things that i feel

I'm tired of sitting back
and seeing you have fun
While i question about my life
and pick up that gun

My life is not easy
I'm just like food in a fridge
it only lasts so long
then thrown in the garbage

You laugh and you smile
while i cry and i frown
You see good and look up
While i see bad and look down

The fact that you did this
Its like holding a boulder
a boulder i have to run with it
and balance it on my shoulder

and soon i just get tired
and I'll fall down to the ground
and i look at my surroundings
and your no where to be found

you make it seem as if
I'm just noting but your scrap book
something you look at occasionally
and you take a little look

You make it like a breeze
just like riding your bike
while i got the hard life
and you get to play with mike

I got my family and friends
saying David shes crazy
But every time i think about it
my head gets so hazy

They say she lost the best man
David its all her fault
She never saw the love you have
or accepted the gifts you bought..

But i cant help but remember..
That smile on her face
that smile that got me going
almost losing my pace

I just cant help but think
and think a man is better
and how you took my love
like a paper through a shredder

you just don't know
How close the knife gets
only thing that keeps me up
is that love i don't forget

This is what i truly feel
I feel like a man who is stupid
a man who got a fake arrow
When he was struck by the cupid

I thought you were so amazing
But you never saw me so great
Thats why I'm feeling so worthless
and you i still have never hate

I really felt so much for you
I thought what i had was true
but you already found another guy
that you can say I love you...

It hurts so much
that knife is in my hand
to remind me on how i failed
this worthless piece of man....

This is a forever wound
its something that wont heal
i just wanted to show you
This is what i feel....