You'll never know

You'll never know,

you try and you fail....
you think that your bleeding heart will get you somewhere....
well it got me down
and knocked out...
shot in the back
and left to drown.
there's no words for the pain that i felt.
makes me wanna throw my hands up..

is there any use to keep moving?
is there any use not to care?
is there any use to only think of yourself?
is there any use to be aware?

why am i fighting?
what's worth my effort to push?
every time i try to live for someone else....
rejection comes and sweeps me away again.
the world says....
"we don't want you, we just want your heart"
but i live in this world...
does it mean that I'm as cold as they are?

i always knew that my dreams would fail.
well here you go....
you all won....
to the world i will wave my white flag of surrender....
what can i do now?
just mold into the background....

peopled will look and point at me saying....
"that's the guy that lost everything.... he used to give a shit but now he's bitter"
but they'll never know where i went to grow to be the way i was then.
they'll wonder where i went off to once my face is lifted from the wall......